Sometimes you listen to a particular song and it takes you back to something that happened in your life or even something that is still happening. For me it’s usually people who left important imprints in my life and contributed to my growth in some way be it good or bad.
A couple of years ago I met this guy who I connected with in so many levels: we had a lot in common, read the same books, listened to the same music, enjoyed the same things. It helped that he was smoking hot! But for some reason, we never connected on a sexual level – I liked him, thought he was cute but I just couldn’t see myself with him. Well, he finally met someone and surprisingly it hurt me a lot. He had become a big part of my life and the idea that I may not be able to talk to him or hangout whenever was difficult to accept. We talked about it and I told him how I truly valued him and how I just didn’t want us to drift apart as friends because he was in a relationship. He waved my feelings off, saying that we’d be friends for a long time. Well shortly after we had a weird disagreement and didn’t speak to each other for over a year. Every time I’d hear this song it was like wounds were reopened. I honestly don’t know why. Sometimes I wonder if I was really into him but was in denial. At that time, I hung out mostly with a straight crowd and to be in such pain and not be able to share it with anyone was difficult. I let myself be sad for 2 weeks then I got up and moved on.
Bills don’t care whether your sad or not.
This post really was inspired by the one on the SingleIn2012 blog. It’s nice to find people who experience and interpret events in a similar way.